Second Chances

I have been meditating on the nature of second chances. BY meditating I mean thinking. This picture and card represent a better time and now that I think of it I wish it was possible to go back in time and start over. 

Would I move to Canada again? Would I willingly get in a fight? Could I try harder and put in more of an effort to be perfect in my life? 

I'm not sure yes would be an answer to any of those questions. It's just frustrating when you know that if you just had that one chance your life could be better. But would it actually make it better? its a frustrating thing that puzzles me everyday. 

AAAAARGHHHHHHH.

Sorry to get all Kanye on you, but I have the SADS so forgive me.

I wish I had that sweet shirt, I was cute. Do you see that perfect bang? Before I probably cut them myself. I was damn fine. Why am I talking like my life is over?

Ping Pong Playa

I watched this great movie called Ping Pong Playa this morning. It was hilarious and really had me laughing. It's about a young asian slacker trying to redeem himself, rather unsuccessfully at first, in the eyes of his family. I would describe it as a modern day Mulan, but that would seem racist being as they're both movies based on Chinese people. In short, I freaking love it!
If you don't have time to watch the movie, you can view the trailer and clip here.

Facebook Etiquette

Living in a small town you tend to run into people. Sometimes these people add you on facebook after never really meeting you. I'm not sure what type of greeting is appropriate, a smile? a hi? a full on "how are you"? Either way I'm not certain, so I just went with a smile and a quick aversion of the eyes. I try not to creep out people and its hard when I semi creep them on the internet, being quiet usually helps me avoid embarrassment though.

FA LALALALALA

I hope the lord ain't coming because doesn't that mean end times is near? What do I know? I'm heretic on a straight up path to eternal damnation. 

"Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live."
- Oscar Wilde

I'm not too excited for christ day. I feel christmas is a manipulation of consumers, don't get me wrong I love products. I just wish I didn't crave pretty things. I need to join a charity or just get a job I can't jack shit from. Which is usually my favorite part of a job. 

In other news: I love 50's for The Money and the Power. I find 50 sexy in a sick sick way. 

TheReplacement

As I already "reported" the Score PU watch I wanted was out of stock. I originally was going to wait until january to get it, but instead I ordered a new one. The Widgi is what i went with. I still love the Score. The Widgi seems to have more features for ten dollars less, including water resistance, light, timer, and alarm.

Things I did Today

I had an awesome day. I frolicked with Chaman, she is an ace snowball thrower. CA handled yet another theft accusation with ease and coolality. She almost hit my butt when I was swinging on the cheap swing I thought I would break. In short, I would bang her.

One Pet Peeve

One thing that I can clearly identify as a pet peeve is when people are on tv with their bluetooth headset on. I mean you're going to be on tv, or at least talking to someone, take that shit out of your ear. You wouldn't leave regular headphones in and lets face it if you have chance to be on tv you are not going to be answering a phone call instead. That shit is classless and rude. Next time just continue fannypack shopping instead of polluting my tv screen.

If your Power isn't out

I strongly suggest you watch The Muppet Christmas Carol. I'm watching it now and it makes my cold cold heart warm up a little. Who doesn't love singing, dancing fury puppets? Scrooge perhaps, but we won't worry about him--he serves his penance and learns his lesson eventually.

Sad Afternoon

My beautiful Score PU watch is out of stock and won't be back in stock until January 19th. It makes me extra sad because they said it was in stock.

Thinking about the Recession

I recently came upon a gallery of HD pics of a decaying Detroit. It even featured a former theatre that had been paved and made into a parking garage. It is beautiful and sad at the same time.  I was left wondering, how did this happen? How long will it take for this to spread? 

Instead of being in love with a Stripper

I've determined that I'm in love with a serial killer. Ok, not really, but Michael C. Hall, of Dexter, is fine. Is being super buff enough to overcome having killed a butt load of people? I'm pretty sure it is. I used to watch Six Feet Under and I didn't see his hotness. Now season three is coming to an end and I for one am extremely sad. Another great Showtime show is True Blood, it's really good. I heard they're already filming season two, so I'm waiting patiently for it come back.

This is oddly attractive. He's so cheery, tan and wears cubano shirts so well. The opening credits on Dexter are disturbing, I can barely watch them.

All I want for Christmas is..

Zomg A puppy?

well that's not going to happen, so I settled on this sweet Nixon watch

It's actually a lot cheaper than most of their watches

The one that's coolest, in my opinion anyways, is the Score PU in blue and they say its red and purple

The beautiful retroness is so enthralling, drool

update

I got this watch, ordered it today

Thanks MOM

Jelp

I decided to get help. I'm going to call some support center, and I really hope they'll have space for me. Lately,  I'm so annoyed at everything, including my g-d self. I would try to help my depression or whatever with diet and exercise, but I wouldn't be in this predicament if I could effectively manage on my own. 

Maybe if I post enough of these calming pictures I can convince myself to be calm.

I'm annoyed again. As Kanye would say, "Eat shit and die."

can't see the forest for the trees

I tried really hard for I guess two years of high school to get good grades. I totally achieved that goal. Then mi madre ruined all of my hard work by moving me to the great white north. I had an option to stay in California and I didn't take it because it would have meant living with my dad. I don't know if I would go back and change my decision, but I know somethings since then have not been working for me. These times are tough and hopefully things will improve and talking to someone (like my homeslices) will help.

This is what I want my life to feel like. 'Shrooms might be needed to get to my nirvana..om

Inauguration Day

On January 20th, 2009 the u.s. will inaugurate the new guy and I found a sweet idea floating around the internets. Shave your pussy and get rid of (your) bush. Its the most cathartic ending to the last eight years of tyranny. I'm not saying Obama is going to be our savior, but he's gotta be better than the last asshole. 

Now, what to ask for for christmas, a job would be nice.  

Next....

nail polish- OPI for Sephor Nail Colour A-ha! Moment

palette- Too Faced Glamour To Go 2 Pocket Palette

sneakers- Vans Breast Cancer Awareness Boylston

hopeful purchase- Panasonic Vivera 42-in Plasma 

First two are not suggested gifts, I already bought them.

On the Reals

I hope my sentence structure improves in the future.

for Chaman A, my fashion lover

Today I decided I need a hobby and in the words of CA a "baby", so I made a blog. I would prefer to think of this as an online journal, but fuck it's a blog. I use the internets to keep boredom at bay and see funny things. I used to think there was no such thing as an online community, as a matter of fact there is. Nobody would know what a fail was if this community didn't exist. So I'm starting this blog to share some stupid links and thoughts. Here's to hoping this isn't my last post.

Cheers,

Elle